merryberryJul 15, 20213 min readRepulsion or revelation?It’s scary how much my body reacts when I eat certain fear foods. I recently started to allow myself to have chips again, of course this...
merryberryJul 3, 20203 min readThe toxic love triangle of food, love and anorexiaI was watching a Netflix show the other day, enjoying a beautiful scene in which an abuela (grandmother) was showing her nieto (grandson)...
merryberryMay 28, 20205 min readThe power of namingEating disorders only entered psychological studies in the 1980s, making it a fairly recent diagnosis. Because of this, I often feel as...
merryberryMay 18, 20203 min readReligion, fasting and anorexia- how to cope...We are currently approaching the end of Ramadan (23rd of May), a spiritual month in the Islamic calendar in which Muslims practice...
merryberryMay 13, 20204 min readAn obsession with bulking- the other sideWhen one suffers with an eating disorder, it is very common to also struggle with Body Dysmorphia or BDD. This is when one views their...
merryberryMay 8, 20203 min readSisters not twins- Autism and AnorexiaI am known for being rigid. I'm not incredibly fussy or strict but I have my own little rules and routines which I like to stick to...
merryberryMay 1, 20203 min readIs my obsession with being healthy unhealthy?My spiral into into anorexia started off as something from good intentions. A lot of my early diet and exercise habits went unquestioned...
merryberryApr 30, 20204 min readObesity - A Moral Panic?We have a taboo against big bodies in our society. Since lock down started, I have seen more jokes about gaining weight in isolation and...
merryberryApr 28, 20203 min readFood, Culture and ControlAfter reading Ruby Tandoh, I started listening to a podcast called “Racist Sandwich” in which chef and food writer Soleil Ho and...
merryberryApr 27, 20203 min readWorth and weightOne benefit of this lock down is that I have been able to get slowly make my way through my reading list. Eventually I stumbled upon Ruby...
merryberryApr 24, 20203 min readDebunking my DemonFor me, the biggest fuel that powered my eating disorder was calorie counting. When I first learnt that if I created a calorie deficit in...
merryberryApr 21, 20203 min readCountless CaloriesLock down has proven to be a challenge: with the confinement to only one accepted outdoor exercise a day coupled with the lack of things...
merryberryApr 20, 20203 min readSally Rooney "Normal People" and noticing EDAs we are all in lock down, we are all having to find other ways of entertaining ourselves. For me, I love to read and the last couple of...
merryberryApr 20, 20201 min readWhy did I decide to write this?I am sure you're all wondering "Why has another white girl decided to write her sob story online?". And I don't disagree with you, why...